[Lose them? It takes a bit for Felix to process that, then to realize that he just said his thoughts out loud, then to remember how viciously he had shut out Dimitri after quelling that western rebellion.
He knows better now, but Dimitri's refusal still has Felix sucking in a breath, horrified at the prospect of Dimitri losing himself to his ghosts like he did before.]
They're...
[...better than I'll ever be.
After all, they were the ones that stuck with Dimitri until the bitter end. Or Sylvain would have, if he had not decided to join the Black Eagles as well, no doubt now, at Dimitri's behest.
But again, the words are stuck in his throat, despite Felix's willingness to voice out that guilt-ridden sentiment. Why...?
Fingers curling, Felix swallows, yet the heaviness in his throat does not ease one bit, the words still not forming themselves as Felix tries to force them out. Even as his heart aches, burning with the urge to apologize for how wrong he's been, how he should have stayed by Dimitri's side this whole while.
Frustration builds within him, clawing at his chest as heat spreads to his nose, tears starting to prickle at his eyes in lieu of those words he could not say.]
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He knows better now, but Dimitri's refusal still has Felix sucking in a breath, horrified at the prospect of Dimitri losing himself to his ghosts like he did before.]
They're...
[...better than I'll ever be.
After all, they were the ones that stuck with Dimitri until the bitter end. Or Sylvain would have, if he had not decided to join the Black Eagles as well, no doubt now, at Dimitri's behest.
But again, the words are stuck in his throat, despite Felix's willingness to voice out that guilt-ridden sentiment. Why...?
Fingers curling, Felix swallows, yet the heaviness in his throat does not ease one bit, the words still not forming themselves as Felix tries to force them out. Even as his heart aches, burning with the urge to apologize for how wrong he's been, how he should have stayed by Dimitri's side this whole while.
Frustration builds within him, clawing at his chest as heat spreads to his nose, tears starting to prickle at his eyes in lieu of those words he could not say.]